I was introduced to make-up when I was 5 or 6 years old. At the time, I was really close to my late grandmother and I would spend a lot of my time at my grandparents’ house. She had a vanity table filled with perfume bottles, jewelry and you guessed it, make-up! I would play with her pink blush and her lipsticks. I specifically remember some of her lipsticks being in gold packaging and I would play with them all the time when she wasn’t looking. I would watch her getting made up and dressed up and I might have gotten my love for making up and dressing up from her.
I started exploring make-up when I was about 15 years old. This was when I was introduced to the world of Youtube. I watched a lot of Michelle Phan, Bethany Mota and some other Youtubers I don’t follow anymore. I began with a bit of BB cream because it’s make-up and skincare in a tube. It’s obviously not commercially made to be that way but I was definitely deceived. I remember going to The Face Shop and buying a BB cream that was way too light for my skintone but I thought I looked good. During those days, especially being in high school, make-up wasn’t a thing. Obviously people would make fun of girls who take their time to look good. I specifically remember getting dissed at by some of my family members for putting make-up on and I was accused of doing that for a boy when I was genuinely doing it for myself. I admit that I was more insecure back then so I might have been doing it to cover up some of my flaws but I don’t see anything wrong with that either.
Now that make-up is more of a thing and people are more aware of it, I don’t get as much negative remarks anymore. I think my age helps with that as well because I’m turning 21 years old so I’m “old enough” to wear make-up. But I still feel like I’m being judged by some of the people close to me for wanting to look nice everyday. The reason I’m writing this blogpost right now is because a girl from Tunku Kurshiah College received a ton of backlash after a video of her being interviewed on the news for getting 9As for her SPM went completely viral and blown out of proportion. She was getting negative comments because she was wearing a lot of make-up, dressed really nicely and she had an accent to her English. So she seemed high-maintenance and somewhat snobby. And it makes me so sad because I don’t think she deserved that amount of backlash. Instead of being congratulated for being academically accomplished, she was being cyber-bullied for the way she looked and act. And it made me a lot more sad that someone close to me said that she deserved the amount of backlash she received because she’s privileged.
I don’t know about you but I feel like I resonate with that girl because I wear make-up too. I like it and I wear it the way I want to. I probably don’t wear as much make-up as she does but I wear a good amount of make-up and it’s something that I truly enjoy because make-up to me is self-care. Putting on skincare, taking care of my skin, putting on make-up so I look somewhat presentable, putting on nice clothes; those things to me are a part of my self-care. You might do it differently. You might do it by exercising, watching what you eat etc but that’s no reason to attack someone. You shouldn’t attack someone because that person is different than you, because he or she has a different family background and a different status. You wouldn’t want someone who’s poor and non-privileged to get attacked by those who might be better off than them so why would you want it for someone who is privileged?
I don’t know, everything about this just makes me so sad. Malaysia has been a really sad place to live in for the past week. Beauty & The Beast got banned because some people are homophobic, a girl got cyber-bullied for being privileged and people are just, generally really mean to one another. Social media is such a toxic place but at the same time, it’s a good platform to do and spread good in the world. Like, just this week, a bunch of people got Turkish Airline to agree to deliver food and help the famine in Somalia. I just wish people can be a lot nicer to others and treat others the way they would want to be treated.
Talk again soon,