I was introduced to make-up when I was 5 or 6 years old. At the time, I was really close to my late grandmother and I would spend a lot of my time at my grandparents’ house. She had a vanity table filled with perfume bottles, jewelry and you guessed it, make-up! I would play with her pink blush and her lipsticks. I specifically remember some of her lipsticks being in gold packaging and I would play with them all the time when she wasn’t looking. I would watch her getting made up and dressed up and I might have gotten my love for making up and dressing up from her.

I started exploring make-up when I was about 15 years old. This was when I was introduced to the world of Youtube. I watched a lot of Michelle Phan, Bethany Mota and some other Youtubers I don’t follow anymore. I began with a bit of BB cream because it’s make-up and skincare in a tube. It’s obviously not commercially made to be that way but I was definitely deceived. I remember going to The Face Shop and buying a BB cream that was way too light for my skintone but I thought I looked good. During those days, especially being in high school, make-up wasn’t a thing. Obviously people would make fun of girls who take their time to look good. I specifically remember getting dissed at by some of my family members for putting make-up on and I was accused of doing that for a boy when I was genuinely doing it for myself. I admit that I was more insecure back then so I might have been doing it to cover up some of my flaws but I don’t see anything wrong with that either.

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If you’re wondering what happened to my phone, I dropped it and the screen shattered into a million cracks. I searched high and low for places I can get it fixed for a reasonable price but the cheapest I could get was RM680. That’s right. SIX HUNDRED EIGHTY RINGGIT.

I got it fixed at the Phone Specialist (it’s literally just called that) at Chonglin Park. If you don’t know where Chonglin Park is, it’s the row of shophouses before Basaga Residences. Before going there, you can definitely give them a call to get a quotation. I got my phone fixed in a day because they had to get the LCD screen in stock since they didn’t have it on the day that I came to get my phone fixed. If they had it in stock, they could fix it in an hour. I wish I could fix it at a lower price but beggars can’t be choosers, I had to lay in my bed. If you get it fixed or the actual term would be replace (I was corrected by the guy at Switch), at Switch, it would be RM1300 which is crazy, of course.

I actually don’t understand how things like this work in Malaysia. I’ve seen Youtubers smash their iPhones before and they got their screens replaced for free all the time. Are their T&C different than us or do we just suck?

Phone Specialist 
P11-G-7B Chonglin Park Jalan Tabuan
93200 Kuching Sarawak Malaysia

Tel : 016-896 8282

Talk again soon,
Hani Lutfi


I just graduated from my Diploma programme, with a Vice Chancellor’s Award, which means that I scored above 3.5 for each semester in the programme. With that, I feel like I’ve experienced a lot of highs and lows throughout the two and a half years that I was in university. It was definitely easier at first, to constantly study and get As. To be honest, I don’t study that much, compared to my peers. I don’t do my revision every day, a lot of times I don’t even do that much revision for my exams. I know it sounds cocky but that’s just me. What I did do was I attended all my classes, especially my core subjects, I did most of my homework and I made sure that I paid a lot of attention in class so that I could understand better and I wouldn’t have to put some extra work into learning and revising on my own.

I guess it’s because even in high school, I’ve never gotten the hang of studying, revising and just, putting 200% in my exams. That doesn’t mean that I don’t do anything at all, it’s just that if you compare me to my peers, I’m so lazy that at some point, it makes me unworthy of my As. At least I feel like I’m unworthy of my As. Some people would say that I was born with it, that I’m just a genius but it’s really not. A lot of people put extra work outside of class, I just put my work during class.

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Last September, I applied for the Yayasan Peneraju ACCA PPAM B Sponsorship online. If you do not know what ACCA is, it stands for Association of Chartered Certified Accountants . To be certified as a professional accountant, there are a variety of certifications you can pursue. For example, in Malaysia, we have the Malaysian Institute of Accountants (MIA). Meanwhile, in the UK, they have ACCA and is recognised worldwide. I can’t brief you on this any further so you’re going to have to look for more information about it online.

Anyway, I applied for the sponsorship online and it was very very easy. They announced that the online application was open on their Facebook page so I just clicked on the link and it led me to a Google Form page where all you have to do is fill up your name, your educational institution, educational levels, grades and whatnot. It took me less than 5 minutes to do all of that. So, if you want to apply, make sure you follow them closely on Facebook.

Yayasan Peneraju has various sponsorship programmes for ACCA so you really have to go to their site and choose which sponsorship programme you would like to apply for. For me, I chose PPAM B. It is a full-time study programme for those who have completed their Diplomas or their CATs.

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I love social media. It’s such a great way to connect with people, spread some love, spread awareness about important matters like war and animal cruelty but it’s also a huge platform for people to spread hate and be mean to one another. What I see on social media, seems like a huge reflection of our society. I don’t know if it’s because time has changed so we view things differently or is it just a matter of, having the accessibility to see the ugly side of our society.

I just want to talk about Twitter in particular, because I spend most of my internet time there. Every time I log onto Twitter, I’ll see discussions going on, whether they are healthy or unhealthy discussions, debates or arguments; they are all I see apart from all the funny jokes, memes and videos. It has become so emotionally tiring for me to go on Twitter and to watch or read these discussions, especially because we all know I have opinions. And it’s hard to keep them to myself, but I manage to do it anyway, 75% of the time.

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I’m not much of a shopper, I think I’ve established this many times before. I would obviously go on a shopping rampage if I ever have the money but I don’t have the money hahah especially now that I’m saving up for a trip in May. I don’t remember the last time I’ve properly shopped on an online site before but when I had to find the perfect ensemble for my faculty dinner a few weeks ago, I ended up going on Zalora to find the perfect shoes. I spent nearly a week, going to every mall in the city, trying to find the shoes I had in mind. I wanted something nude, strappy and timeless, AND affordable.


When it came in a few days later, it ended up being one size too big for my feet. There wasn’t time for me to exchange them for another size because when I received them, I had only two days until the dinner. I ended up wearing something else but I still, really like the shoes that I got. It was everything that I wanted; nude, strappy, timeless and affordable.

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When I was in high school, I was committed to keeping tabs with what’s happening in the K-pop and K-drama world but as I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned to sift things through and only listen and watch something that’s worth my time and dollar bills. I haven’t been watching a lot of K-drama lately, especially after quitting Running Man because it was distracting me from studying for my SPM.


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My mind has been flooding up with thoughts that I feel like I couldn’t articulate into words but today, I’m going to try. It has been raining for days in Kuching and the wet and gloomy weather truly depresses me, somehow. I’ve always been a huge fan of sunny days, especially the days when there’s barely any clouds in the sky and the sun pierces through your skin, you can feel the melanin in your skin working. The past few days have been cold and wet, I want to do nothing but stay in bed, binge-watch Friends and cuddle with my cat.

Speaking of my cat, he’s lying beside me while he stares at my moving fingers. Oh, he’s falling asleep now. That’s how cold it is. Oh no, he’s wide awake again. Hahah I feel like one of those movies where the protagonist would be sitting by the window, writing a letter with a monologue in the background.

Where was I?

Oh yes, the weather. I’ve been feeling super duper unproductive despite the work that I do and the amount of classes I have to attend every day. I’ve fallen into a routine for the past month, it’s making me sick. Throughout the week, I’ve had people looking at me with despair and my friends asking why I look so depressed, or at least super unamused with everything around me. I feel so bored with my life, I wish I had something to be excited about. I just want to go to the park or the beach, maybe try a new cafe, adopt a new hobby. I want to do something, I need something new. I’m always one to have this huge thirst for adventure and sure, I’ll be travelling in about 3 months but the wait is so dreadful.

I should probably do my homework, study for my quizzes but like I’ve said, it’s so so so cold.

I forgot where I was going with this.

Talk again soon,
Hani Lutfi